happy birthday to me: 39 years of reflection
It's official. I'm now entering the last year of my 30's. GULP. Where did the time go? I still don't feel like I am a whopping 39 years old, but here we are.
There are a lot of days where I still feel like I'm in my 20's, but wiser thank god. I sometimes wish I were still young enough to create my own future based on what my dreams were back when I wanted to live this BIG life with BIG dreams in a BIG city. Boy did things turn out differently.
But the best thing about getting older is that you still can create your own future, and like I've said before, you never know where life will take you and what journey you're on. And wherever that is, its the path you were meant to take. It doesn't always look like the one you envisioned for yourself, but the big guy up north gives you what he knows you can handle. And boy, did he give me more than I thought I could handle, but I've learned to take it all in stride.
I'm a pretty lucky lady, despite the ups and downs in life (and I haven't had nearly the downs that some people have had) I am eternally grateful for:
- The people in my life
- The small luxuries I've been able to enjoy
- The love I've received and the love I've given
- The parents who raised me & gave me every opportunity in life
- The brother who protected me & stood by my side
- The experiences I've had
- The cities I've traveled to
- The opportunities that have come my way
- The man who I will soon call my husband & have shown me unconditional love
- The failures I've experienced that have helped me grow
There are so many more I could list, but one thing I 'get' about getting older, is that I can truly, madly and deeply appreciate all of these things and more. Good and bad, its the perspective you get when you age and more importantly, the appreciation. There are so many things I would want to tell my younger 18 year old self, but I'll save that for another blog post.
Today, will be a day of personal indulgence. Sitting by our pool, reading a great book at our home in Palm Springs, being with my loved ones, getting a little shopping in and indulging in fresh lobster, crab and cake for an epic birthday. Like a true east coaster should.
For all of this, I am truly grateful.