are you there dream job? it's me andrea.
There was a time in my life when I was certain about my career.
That ship has temporarily sunk and is in need of dire resuscitation (sorry for the melodrama, but stick with me here and I'll explain).
Last month, I parted ways with my employer (I was technically a "full-time" contractor). And let me clarify, they were good to me. They hired me when I was 4 months pregnant and allowed me to take the time off I needed after Grayson was born. And they were a US company, so I was very lucky to even have 4 months off as I navigated my way through motherhood.
But it was a job more out of convenience and not passion. It was not a job for me because the industry just didn't suit me. Round peg, square hole. I didn't love it, it wasn't creative and to make matters worse, I didn't jive with some of the people I worked with and felt like I couldn't really "own" the position I was given. I guess this happens when you're the newbie and you're up against those who are either specialists in the field or have been with a company for 10+ years. I was out of my comfort zone, asked to work on projects that were far beyond my knowledge & experience (I always had the luxury to hire team members who were experts at various specialities than me. Because we were an extremely small team, this was not the case). I started to lose confidence in the work I was doing and really started to question what my contribution was and if it was worth anything to them. Five months in, I knew this was not for me.
However, I stuck through it because it was a pay cheque (anyone who knows me well, I'm not one to depend on a man for money), it was A JOB which I knew didn't come easy anymore given my location, and I so desperately needed that balance of mom and career. Plus it allowed me to work from home, with flexible hours. I was lucky, so what's there to complain about? The one thing I learned more of was Google Analytics and Facebook Ads Manager. In fact, I became a pro. For that, I am grateful because I am better for it.
But let me go back to the passion part. I quickly realized that me taking a job for the sake of a pay cheque was the worst decision I'd made, career-wise. As a new mom I felt that if ANY job was going to take me away from my son for 8-10 hours a day, it better be one that I was passionate about. The drive was definitely not there and I woke up every morning asking Nate if I could quit my job. Please, can I quit my job yet?! I knew something had to change but I was scared to lose the salary and scared to know that another job may not come. At all.
But when it finally happened, I felt like I could breath again. You know that feeling when have been suppressing something for so long that when you rip the bandage off, its the biggest sense of relief EVER?! That's how I felt. It allowed me to finally focus on the things I love, work on what's next (whatever that is) and start to really network the shit out of myself.
I'm lucky that I'm highly connected because I've spent years building an amazing network of people throughout my career and life. I knew I could tap into them and so far, the response has been amazing with potential opportunities that have come my way so far. I look forward what will come next. Whatever that is, I will approach it carefully with keen interest, thoughtfulness, gratitude and above all, passion.
Build it and they will come, right?