a curious mind
It's no secret that a kids curiosity is at its peak when they are little toddlers. Every day, they are faced with new challenges, new objects, new people, new abilities & developments and the list goes on and on. I wish I could remember what it was like to be my son's age. The memories I could share!
But now as a parent, it's been so fascinating to watch our own child grow up. I see how Grayson observes the world and his surroundings, how he starts to copy us and how he finds the biggest curiosities in the most mundane, simple things we often just take for granted as adults. Grayson is thriving and every day it's something different for him. Any parent will say, it's like waking up to a new human because they change so much day-to-day.
Observing the light in the clothes dryer, watching the clothes spin around in the washing machine, touching everything in the fridge and picking them up (the minute I open the fridge, I hear the pitter-patter of tiny feet racing behind me to get in there). The moments are endless and as an adult, they are fun to watch because we lose that sense and level of curiosity our children are there to remind us of.
I've come to realize that it's not just him learning and acting curious, it's also Nathan and I. As 40 year old adults, it's amazing how much you can learn from your child. Learning his little habits, his mannerisms, his eating habits, how he feels emotion and so much more. We too have curious minds all while our child is also doing the same, but differently. Grayson is slowly learning his boundaries and so are we as parents. Boundaries we naturally set in place to keep him safe, but also boundaries with each other and how we parent. It's like you are constantly trying to prevent him from feeling pain and hurt, but I have to keep telling myself it's a part of the process.
What have I learned through all of this? I've learned to accept and allow Nathan to parent how he wants to because my way is not the perfect way, but it works for me and not always for Nate. As women and mother's isn't this the hardest thing to do?! Or maybe it's just my OCD and control-freak nature I tend to have...
This time is quickly passing us by and I can't believe he will be 15 months in 9 short days and I'm slowly learning not to take even the smallest, daily moments for granted. The small discoveries, new skills and curiosities Grayson is experiencing are the ones Nathan and I live for. It's not all about us anymore and we wouldn't have it any other way.